He sat at her bedside without moving for a week straight, until Hotch came and physically moved him. He only ate when someone on the team came and forced the food and drink on him.

They worried. He hadn't spoken since they'd gotten the call from the hospital. The whole team had high-tailed it to the jet, fearing the worst for their friend and colleague. Whether or not he had ever admitted it, they knew how Derek felt about Penelope.

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

How could have he let this happen to her? He was supposed to protect her. He had failed her, and Derek wasn't sure he could ever live with himself for that. She wouldn't be in that hospital bed if he hadn't held back from her, hid from his feelings. He'd been afraid to lose her as a friend. He should have been able to see that she wanted it too. How could he have been so blind? He could tell you everything about a killer he had never even seen, but he was oblivious as to how a beautiful woman felt about him. He disgusted himself.

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

Derek did something he hadn't done in a very long time. He prayed. He prayed to God that she would be alright. That she would wake up and he would have a chance to tell her how he felt. This couldn't be the end, he had to let her know. Derek looked at her, lying amongst the crisp, white sheets. It scared him to see her so pale. She always glowed with such life, it was terrifying to see it all but missing from her deathly pale skin. She had no idea how absolutely gorgeous she was, he mentally kicked himself for never honestly telling her that. He swore that it would be that first thing her said to her when she woke up, and she would wake up. She had to.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

He had always told himself they would be better off if he never made a move. He could see now just how wrong he had been. Nothing was better than true love. It was now clear that that was what they had. They were meant to be, he only prayed that it wasn't too late to show her how good it could be, how good they could be. How he could have held back for so long, seen her hurt so many times, telling himself she was better off without him. If nothing else, he should have gotten his wake up call when she had flown off the handle at him over the phone. He was supposed to know women. How could he have not seen the blatant feelings in her accusations. He could see now that she was trying to tell him how he felt about him and how much she'd been hurt by his inaction. He would tell her. As soon as she woke up, and she would wake up.

You are the air that I breathe.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

He took her hand, willing his beautiful goddess to come back to him. This couldn't be the end. If no one else, she deserved to have her happy ending. It couldn't be too late, it just couldn't. He watched her diligently, alert to every movement, praying one of them would be a sign of life from her. It was when Hotch came in to drag him away, saying it wasn't healthy for him to sit there for so long, when it happened. It was just a flutter of the eyelids, barely visible, but he by this time he knew every nuance of that face. He stopped cold in his tracks. Hotch continued to try and drag him out, Derek tugged himself out of the man's grasp and flew to her side once more. He immediately reached for her hand, just as her eyelids fluttered again. This time she opened them, squinting at the bright hospital lights. As Hotch dashed out of the room to get the rest of the team, Derek spoke.

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
Hear my confession

He told her everything. Everything he felt for her, every thought in his mind that had consumed him since he'd gotten that call from the doctor. He told her how he loved her more than anything, how she was the most incredibly beautiful woman he had ever seen, everything. She didn't speak, just listened with wide eyes as he told her everything she had dreamed of. When he'd finished, all she did was smile and squeeze his hand. She didn't need to say anything, he already knew. It had taken him a long time to figure it out, but he finally knew. Derek sent up a silent thank you for his prayers finally being answered. She was going to be ok, they were going to be ok.

Ok, so it's not like anyone who reads this is really going to care, but I'm away from my family and I have no more phone minutes.
I just have to tell somebody!

I got to shoot a gun for the first time tonight, and that was amazing!
For my fellow Bones fans, I have to say I wore the crazy striped socks and a big, chunky Brennan necklace. I know, I'm really weird!

I'm excited for the end of the month! Not only are my favorite shows back, but I also get to finally be a co-judge for my favorite challenge group, Cullen's Bullpen!

So...I really don't have anything useful or prudent to post right now, but I am working on a new Booth/Bones story!

Well. I realized that I haven't yet made a post to my journal. So to start, I guess I'll post one of my  booth/bones fanfics.

Title: Booth's Everything
Author: SSidle
Pairing: B/B
Spoilers: None
Summary: An altered version of the Brad Paisley song, She's Everything.

( she's everything to me )

She’s a deep brown pair of high-heeled boots

A tailored pair of slacks

She looks great in her blue lab coat

She looks great in anything

She’s I want some take out Thai food

Let me drive to the scene

She’s don’t bug me when I’m working

And now and then she’s moody

 

She’s a buried silver four door

With her auburn hair grimy

She’s a perfect partner

And a good feeling knowing

She’s a long explanation

That I often miss the meaning

She’s a shooter when she’s mad

And confused when she’d loving

 

And she’s everything I ever wanted

And everything I need

I talk about her I go on and on and on

‘Cause she’s everything to me

 

She’s a Saturday out with Angela

And in the lab on Sunday

She’s beads around her neck

And a cuss word ‘cause she’s busy

She’s a long night at her laptop

Don’t even try to kiss me

She’s one glass of wine

At the bar with me

 

She’s the genius I don’t wish to be

And the stealer of the spotlight

She’s a signature on the report

And a friend to my child

She’s the crier in my arms

When she’s abandoned and broken

She’s the one that I pray for

And she’s the song that we’re singing

 

And she’s everything I ever wanted

And everything I need

I talk about her I go on and on and on

‘Cause she’s everything to me

 

She’s the woman I fell for

The minute I saw her

She’s the one that I’ve needed

I can’t live without her, but

With every fight we have

I only wonder more

Why she’s the one

That I’d lay down my own life for

 

And she’s everything I ever wanted

And everything I need

She’s everything to me

Yeah, she’s everything to me